The year is almost over and as I see the pages turning on my calendar I have taken the last few weeks to reflect on how things played out, what was good, what was not good and where I hope to go next. I have spent a lot of time away from social media and more time with friends. I did end up getting that job that I applied for and it has become my dream job and I hope it stays that way. For anyone who knows me, you understand that I don’t like the traditional work week and that I was so done with dental hygiene after working in a terrible office, but, this job is different. It is in the beautiful town of Wolfboro, New Hampshire and I work with some of the nicest people and have the best patients! It is an absolute joy to go to my job and help my patients each day, I have fallen back in love with dental hygiene! Having oodles of sweet trail nearby helps make it that much better!
As for my running I am giving it another go. My achilles has healed, the doctor gave me the thumbs up and I am so out of shape I can’t help but laugh at it! I have decided to accept the challenge of getting back in shape and have very new and different goals than the last few years. This year has literally chewed me up and spit me out, but along the way taught me a lot of lessons. After spending the year being broke, injured, sick, feeling awesome and feeling terrible I am tired. I had lost my love of running and eventually my desire to wake up in the morning. I didn’t care if I ever woke up, but I knew this wasn’t me and that I needed to find my smile again. It was hard at first but slowly it happened, things turned around and each day I found myself closer to who I am and who I want to be. I am even back in therapy to get my head in a good place.
I stopped racing, I started running for fun and even mountain biking again. I put the watch down for a while and stopped looking at my pace. I ran with friends, ran with Ryan, ran with Jack puppy. I ran in New Hampshire and had some incredible runs in Utah while visiting my brother and his wife and finally meeting my baby nephew Alexander. While in Utah I tagged Kings Peak with Ryan and got peak #13 in my US Highpointing adventure! It was snowy, cold, sunny, beautiful, scary and icy on the narrow ridge (3k foot drop on one side and 2k drop on the other!) and of course there was altitude which gave us splitting headaches and nausea. It was the most incredible 30 miles of my life!
I am in a good place today, I am happy! I love being a step mom and sharing our love of the outdoors with Ryans daughters Zoe and Hannah. They girls recently earned their NH firetower patches with the most recent ascent being a windy but awesome Cardigan climb! These kids have given me a new reason to smile and are the center of my world! I want to be a good role model for them and show them that it is okay to be themselves and how important it is to be happy. Watching them enjoy new things and to experience life through the eyes of a child is something I am beyond grateful for. I never imagined being a step mom could be so amazing!
As for my goals, it is simply to be happy. I also plan to continue to work on being healthy, fit and having fun! I am not done racing but do need a break. I need to spend some time getting my head in the right place, spending time with my family creating wonderful memories together, hanging out with friends and getting healthy before I can run like I used to. Oh, and I am taking fiddle lessons just for fun! An evening watching Old Crow Medicine show performed made it look so fun I had to learn how to play! 2015 is going to be a year of peace, happiness, health and fun!
I also plan to stay removed from most social media and keep my life happenings limited to my blog. When people seemed to start liking me only because I was running fast it really played games with my head. I spent most of the year trying to figure out if people wanted to talk to me because I was fast or if because I was a nice person. I am far from shallow and sometimes too brutally honest. It means a lot to me for people to like me because they met me and being around me makes them feel good. It was also hard to find out that people didn’t want to run with me because they were afraid of slowing me down, New Hampshire can be a lonely place for an active girl and I run slow and fast! Running is a social sport for me and without friends to share it with I would rather find something else social to do.
I also am quite shy (although it may not seem like it) and prefer to stay out of the spotlight. I am proud of my accomplishments and like to help encourage others to chase their dreams but I don’t want to be treated any differently than anyone else simply living their lives.
If you want to contact me or Ryan (We are no longer on facebook) my email is firstname.lastname@example.org . We are always looking to run and hang out with people! I would also like to thank my sponsors for being so good to me this year, it really meant a lot to me! 🙂
I don’t know when I will post again but I do know I will be having fun! It feels good to smile again and whatever life hands me I will continue to focus on being the best person I can be and remember that being happy is what really matters to me. 🙂